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ok i dunno wtf i was thinking when i first wrote this. the point is that its very hard to forgive someone when you cant forget all they've done to you. especially when you're in a relationship with that person. as much as i try to focus on the good, certain things, even if its the smallest mistake, remind me of all the fucked up shit that was done to me in the past. i think maybe i dont forgive myself for letting it happen to me, and putting up with it. can you really be with someone when you know that they're capable of hurting you like that?

A World I Never Knew Existed

It's rare that you meet someone who changes your life, who inspires you and makes you want to be better. How when they are in front of you the world doesn’t exist because its just you and them. You know that one person who gives you that stupid smile all day even if you’re all by yourself smiling like a retard. Someone who you can’t really pin point why in hell you like them but you just do. Sometimes you play a song over and over just because it reminds you of them. Everyone always has that someone that whether they are in your life or not they would have changed your life forever. Someone who no matter how bad they break your heart you still love them with all the little pieces. They say you hurt the people you love the most, but why is that? Why do we see, feel, and smell them every where we go. Sometimes you see their name in random places and you think omg it’s a sign. And no matter how mad you are they always know the right thing to say so that you don’t even remember why you where mad in the first place. Sometimes you just wish random things will happen so you have an excuse to call or text them. Someone who’s voice turns your day upside down. Someone who takes a life time to forget, and for some stupid reason you just can‘t turn off that little light of hope. I guess I haven’t closed the book, I just turned the page. Another sleepless night, Over and Out.
Weezy

P.S. If you were thinking of someone while reading than that's your sign.

Tick Tock, Tick Tock! BOOM!

Why can't times just fly by or slowdown whenever you want it to. I'm sitting here bored at work with nothing to do. All I do is shop on Amazon or Overstock, but I'm broke now so no more shopping for me. I've checked my email 12654789 times! I've stalked people on Facebook and Myspace! What else can I possible do here at work?? I feel like I'm becoming even more retarded by the minute just sitting here staring at my computer screen. Anyway I decided to write a little something to take my mind off work. So I've become really aggressive lately, I want to punch everyone that annoys me specially my pesky customers! I try to avoid lines, they just annoy me! My biggest pep peeve is when someone behind me in line stands a little too close to me, invading my personal space. I just want to turn around and be like excuse me asshole can you not breathe down my neck! Geez Too many retards are out loose in the world! I need to start taking kickboxing class soon before I go off on these fucking retards at work. Like my boss today came over and was trying to give me something to do like wtf does it look like I'm sitting here on my ass? (I was) but still he thinks he can push his work off on me. So i just ignored him and did what i want! yes, i just sat here for 6 more hours doing a survey and thinking what i should do later on today. lol Ok so here are 25 random stupid facts about me that you probably don't care to know:
1. I Love Purple. It calms me down. ;0)~
2. I hate touchy feely people, and people who always have the need to touch you. Well there's a small few I don't mind touch me! :0)~ hehehehe
3. I have a hearing problem; I never know what people are saying to me especially on the phone. lol
4. I drink way too much coffee!
5. I'm obsessed with throwing things out. I go thru my room and find things that i can and can't live without and I get rid of it even if i might need it. I hate having to depend on material things. Yes i even got rid of my bed and lots of my clothes. I rarely keep things that mean a lot to me.
6. I've done really bad things but gotten away with it cuz people think I'm too nice and never could have done it. hehehehe I'm capable of a lot of things. (I could be evil!) :0)~
7. I've never been in a relationship. Love freaks me out! I'm a commitment phobic. Hence I like to get rid of things. lol Yes I do push people away a lot but hey if they stick around after me pushing them away then props to them. They must really love me. heheheh
8. I hate the cold and the snow. I want to live in a tropical place.
9. If I could shoot someone and get away with it I think I would. I have a list of people! lol
10. I think I might have been in love once but I'm still debating it. I might be wrong.
11. I don't remember my first kiss but I have 2 really memorable kisses from 2 different guys that I'll never forget!
12. I Hate being late.
13. I love being alone! I love quiet time! lol
14. I could never live without music. It feeds my soul!
15. I love making people laugh. If I can make someone laugh it would have completed my day.
16. When i was in high school I hated kids and never wanted to have any of my own. All that changed when i went to college.
17. I have multiple personalities. One of them is always depressed. That bitch has no reason to be but she's just always depressed. And don't get me started on luscious that girl is a freak. lol heheheheh
18. Alcohol makes me sleepy. zzzzzzzzzzz
19. I change my mind a lot. I'm very indecisive.
20. I'm not big on regret but if given the chance to re write my history I would do things a lot differently.
21. I hate people who think that they are god gift to earth! Who do anything for attention, who are clingy and lie. Oh and people who chew really loud, and when you cant have a conversation with someone without every other word they say be a curse word.
22. I don't like crying in front of people! Unless I'm watching a very sad movie and I just can't help it. lol And I do cry in most sad movies.
23. My perfect soul mate would be from the south. ( I Love southern accent.) He would be aggressive and assertive. Must importantly funny! Doesn't give a fuck about what anyone says, and would love me unconditionally. I would also settle for a dirty construction worker with anger issues who would put me in my place when I get a little frisky. I just love an aggressive man! lol hehehe
24. I wish I had a super power! (I would love to turn people into stone. wahahahahhahahaha)
25. I will get my revenge. I will succeed, I will prevail, and last but not least I will get over you.

That's all folks! Till next time. xoxoxoxox
Weezy

My Love, My Addiction

Valentines day is coming soon! Woo hoooo! NOT! Lol Wow LOVE what can I say! I don’t think I’ve ever been “In Love” I thought I was once but idk who I’m I to say what love is. Its funny how you can devote some much time to and with someone and just have it end or have it mean shit to them. How sometimes you wait and you wait for someone just to be in vain. When you know there is no hope but you still keep holding on. You check your phone every second and when it rings your heart stops, then you see its not even him. How every night you dream about them and all day you cant stop thinking about that person. They say you should work hard for love but how do you know if you’re working way too hard. Or they say you should fight for what you want but if they don’t want to be with you then why are you still fighting? And how do you know when its “Love”? Love can be way too complicated sometimes! We just never learn. But I think that is what we like about it. We see something impossible and we want to turn it possible no matter what it takes. Like we fall for someone who’s attached, or someone who lives miles away, or for someone who doesn’t even know we are alive. But my favorite one is when we fall for the guy who treats us like shit! Haha yeah this one is my personal favorite. I guess we see a challenge! You want to be the girl that’s different, the exception to the rule. You want to be the girl he changes for! Well girl if you haven’t gone out and watched “He’s Just Not That Into You” Then you should! Lol Yeah it might be a little cheesy girl night out movie but hey they only speak the truth. If a guy wants to be with you, he will make it happen. If he’s giving you the runaround like calling when its convenient for him well he’s just not that into you! Lol Anyway I could keep going all night but let me just finish by saying that love shouldn’t be soo complicated. Don’t wait on him cuz he’s probably not waiting for you. And whatever you do don’t be “Best friends” with someone you “Love” It doesn’t work out! Trust me I know! You lose your best friend and the love of your life all at once. Now the hard part is moving on and forgetting about it all! It takes time ladies, what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger! So get out there and don’t be afraid to open your heart, just be careful who you open your heart to. Stop stressing and live your life! Be Confident! Put yourself first! Love yourself first!

I will forever love you! Xoxoxoxoxox
~Weezy Baby~

Bermuda, Bahama...

I need a vacation... asap...when I have time at work all I can do is search for trips to Punta Cana and the Bahamas...I have to say that I love, love, loved Punta Cana, and I wouldn't think twice about going back. Someone please, come with!!!

Purple Portrait

Wow these pass few months have been hell for me. I get up at the crack of dawn and go to work, then home, then I do it all over again the next day. There is no joy, no happiness just emptiness. I wish I could find that thing everyone is looking for, “Happiness” but what is happiness really? A boyfriend?? A hobby? Family?? Money??? I don’t know what it is but I need to find it soon! I walk around In a daze, in a zombie like state, looking for that something that’s going to make me want to get up every morning. Work sucks, I work with complete idiots! Family is driving me crazy! I’ve been sleeping on a couch because I do longer have a bed! And I feel like I’m 3,000lbs! Anyway in these past few months I learn you can only count on yourself, and to never lean on anyone and never underestimate anyone.
On a sweeter note I feel life is too short to hold grudges and to deal with too much drama and bull shit. I just want to continue bettering myself and become a smarter and wiser woman. I have no plans no agenda just going to let the days take me where it may. I’m gonna enjoy they little things and work hard so that I don’t need anyone to feel proud of me as long as I’m proud of myself. Don’t underestimate me, I’m silent but deadly! ;0)~ I also forgive but I don’t forget! Till next time kids put a smile on your face because you never know who’s falling in love with your smile.
~Weezy baby~
~xoxoxoxo~

Poppin' the cherry

Ahh! My first post ever! I should be working right now but I couldn't help myself. I don't have time to write much now but I just wanted to get the ball rolling....

(Oh yeah girls, if you want you can create your own profile in addition to the one I gave you- you just have to create a gmail account. Just follow the instructions in the email I sent you. )

OK thats all for now.. ciao ciao
Pau