Nada es para Siempre

I cant believe Thanksgiving is over and now just a few more weeks till Christmas. The older you get the faster time seems to fly. I had a great Thanksgiving not only because I didn’t have to cook but because I got to see family I haven’t seen in a long time. Its so easy to lose touch with people and at the same time regain that friendship with someone you haven’t seen in a long time. Holidays can be though , sometimes it doesn’t matter how many family and friends are around you sometimes you cant help it but feel alone. Its not that you don’t feel grateful but more like you’re missing something, with brings me to this next question. Can you lose something you never really had?? Or should it hurt less losing something if you never really had it? Well I don’t know people say you make your own happiness but something’s are out of our control. People do and feel things that are not logical but how do you stop that? How do you not feel possessive over someone who’s not your’s? How do you regain trust in someone who you once cared about?? Sometimes I wish I could go back to where times were simpler but knowing what I know now I wouldn’t go back for anything. I’ve learned time were not simpler but more like I was blind and it just seemed that way, besides I think I’m stronger and wiser now. Its sad to say but something’s will ever be the same. I’m not 100% there yet but I’ve been making great progress. Yes I relapse now and them, but sometimes I just cant help myself. I’m just waiting for time to do its things. You cant move on when the source of your problem lingers around you, the best time is to move on and let them go. I'm just waiting till i'm finally free till I no longer have to feel guilty and empty every time someone else is lying next to me. I cant wait till I finally close this chapter, and I can finally move on. No pain last forever, now if I can only fast forward till then…………

New Years Resolution; Stop thinking with my heart and be a little more rational when it comes to matters of the heart!

Just remember, Karma is a bitch. What goes around comes back around.

This chapter is now closed.

Till next time

Weezy

xoxo

Drama Free Life

Another Angry Blog! This is just part of my anger management program. Because I rather write than beat the shit out of someone! Oh and because I write my best work when I‘m angry and alone in my head! Not that I’m angry or anything! ;o)~ lol

Ok this is it! And only cuz I know you’ve been waiting for this so you can over analyze it or misinterpret it to your liking, but honestly I don’t give a shit what you think so here it is. My weapon of mass destruction, because I know it drives you crazy not knowing what I’m really thinking right??? And because my writing always have a double meaning to it ;o) lol So here it is:

I should have been an actress, I wanna be front and center stage! Give me lights, I wanna put on a show! I wanna be the star, a diva! but I don’t want to play the protagonist, the victim. I wanna play the villain, the bitch the bad one! They always have the most fun! Like I say a good girl is only a bad girl that never gets caught! ;o)~ See my problem is I’m very indecisive, I change my mind a thousand times a day(Same with my emotions). My other problem is that I never finish what I started. I do shit half way or just never finish or fully commit to something. Here is my last problem. I can be a little too nice. I rather not tell you the truth because knowing me I wanna spare your feeling or some shit like that. I’m quite and I like to watch people. My favorite(People I fucking loath) are people that create drama and drown themselves in it. They like to put themselves in the middle of the drama even if the drama is not even about them. They like the attention, they like to play the victim and have everyone feel sorry for them. These are also the easiest people to torture, just give them drama that they cant solve and see how easily they step back. We are all grown ups here so we all make mistakes. No one is perfect, I sometimes act irrational or out of anger but I know right from wrong and I can always right my wrongs. I know the company I keep, my closest friends, my enemy, my family, people I can trust. But truth is that you never really know someone. Just like you’ll never know why you love certain people , why we do the stupid things we do, why you could never love someone, why you hate the little things people do or why is it so easy to judge other people’s problems but your own. Unless you’ve walked on someone else’s shoes you’ll never really know. We all see and react to things differently. Like I said in the beginning I change my mind a thousand times a day, so leave me the fuck alone, and let me be angry so that I can hate you for my own irrational reasons. Tomorrow is a new day so ask me again how I feel, who knows I might love you again tomorrow. Let me be who I wanna be, let me act how I wanna act. Just let me be me, Irrational, emotional and crazy me. If you don’t like it than let me go and let me move on with my life. I can’t and wont explain myself as well as I wont apologies for my actions or my emotions. I’m a trouble maker so I’m giving you a jail free card. Run for your life and never look back. I wish you the best of luck and I know you’ll understand and thank me one day. There’s only so much a girl can take before she gets it but I’ve finally got it and I know myself. I wont be able to take or endure much of this so I’m running too. Far away from you were I can find my sanity and get over you. Nothing would be quite the same. This would be a new chapter, a new adventure. I’m gonna be just fine. I’m gonna learn to be more cautious. Also learn to keep my mouth shut sometimes and be careful what I say. But most Importantly who I say things too and who I trust. I gotta say I lost respect for a few people and their stupid judgment. That’s it! Take that as you will. That’s all I got for now.

For a better and drama free tomorrow.

Simply me!

Weezy

xoxo

Just Like Before

What can I say that I haven’t said before? What else can I try that I haven’t tried before? What else can I make you see that you haven’t seen before? What mistakes can I avoid that I’ve made before? I don’t want you any less but time’s been cruel. I am as confused as I was a few months before. There’s nothing I want more than you. But selfishly wanting you this bad is what’s gotten me here before. I can let you into my bed at night because I can close my eyes but not my heart. I can sit here and lie to myself but at the end of the day I’m the one that ends up wanting more. What’s the point of me telling you that your that one I want when it’s gotten me nowhere before? Teach me how you do it so I don’t feel this way anymore. Show me how to walk away at night with no regard for my emotions. As much as its killing me to have you so close and not have you, I will NOT just let it be like before.


Weezy

Turning 26!

Just another blog for old time sakes!

So I'm turning 26 in a few days and like most people getting older is something I really don't look forward to. You would think life would get easier but in reality it just gets more complicated. Being a grown up sucks! I graduated college and you would think this was a big deal because I would have a better job with bigger opportunities but that hasn't happened yet. I work just to pay my school loans and endless bills. Work is the same old shit, just another broken record! I also gave up on the Idea of finding that kind of story book fairytale true love! It just doesn't exist! Looking back at everything Its not that my feelings have changed but more like I've accepted the fact that some people aren't meant to be. I wanted to be your everything, more than her your one and only. Not your last resort but the only one you saw above all, but I realized maybe I was asking for too much. So in a harsh reality I moved on. Who know's maybe its better this way! I can now love you in a different way. I cant complain about everything when I have to be grateful that I'm healthy! I have family that love me and great friends I can count on. Time is flying by so I've learned to appreciate the small things and be thankful for what I have. Next year would be here before you know it and soon I'll be 30 and buying wrinkle cream! Ahhh I don't event want to think about it! lol I'm hoping Santa brings me a sexy man to have beautiful babies with! This year will be about me and going after what I want, so lets see what this new year will bring!

In a very sleepy mood!

Weezy! xoxo

Mental Paralysis of Sorts!

It's been pretty quiet here on the forefront. School is on the backburner for a month. Yeah, a single month is their idea of a "Summer Vacation", whoopdie-fucking-do.
Brain has been overloaded with soap, soap ideas, soap design. It's crazy because out of all the ideas I have, not a single thing has been produced. That's not entirely true, that sentance was more of a reference to my actual product design. I've been making soap, and I've sold a few. But now I'm coming up to the point where I need to a) develop a cohesive line, b) develop packaging for said line c) sell my ass off.
Seems pretty simple, but other things tend to take up my brainpower. Today is my novel which I have been working on for a year, scrapped it and started a new one-- around the same genre, a couple of months ago. Problem with that, is that once I get to a certain point, I feel paralyzed and cannot write any longer. I don't want to potentially mess it up with some kind of nonsense prose. That's what I'm battling today.
Oh yeah, and my shortcomings as an actor-- highlighted by a certain audition I attended where they asked me to read for three different parts-- all of which I flubbed in one way or another. Now, I'm dealing with an insecurity that's more of the knowledge scale. Maybe I just don't know enough yet to jump in headfirst-- although it was kind of fun at the same time, it's the looking back at it that makes me feel a little bit foolish.
But not enough to deter me. Skipping my acting class today since my partner won't be around. Can't act without my partner, but I can pick up the zen advice that my teacher tends to give to every student. I feel slightly guilty, but hey, it's a holiday weekend!
Made the cutest, yummiest single-use sugar/soap scrubs. Gotta buy jars to store them, gotta do labels to sell them-- but above all--- gotta design it before I get it all. See, paralyzing.
I thought maybe a couple of days off would rejuvenate me. Instead, I feel like my mind is bursting with ideas and I feel so paralyzed. Stuck.

Could be the cabin fever... I've been a hermit since Friday.

-sk

Sweet, Saucy & Ohhh So Naughty………..

Wow I don’t even know where to start. I have not written something In here for soo long, and surprisingly so much has happened . Where to begin? Hmmm I know, Lets take it back 3 weeks ago where things started to look up for me. Ok so after my 10 day “Vacation” from work I finally go back to work and as you all know I fucking hate my job but for some kind of a miracle I actually found a reason to want to go to work. I meet someone, attraction at first sight is what I like to call it! Lol Anyway don’t get to exited my stories never have a happy ending. Lol. So here is this older very attractive guy talking to me, trying to get me caught in his sticky love trap! Lol Anyway he’s just this older bad boy type, super sweet and makes me feel loved like I’m the only woman in the room. Problem is this guy is technically still married (Separated from his wife but still married) Three kids, and 41 years old. I know what your thinking, HOLY SHIT LUISA! Lol I know but you have to understand that I have a history for falling for the wrong kind of guys. I want the impossible, what I cant have, I want the guys that don’t want me ect. The more I cant have something the more I want it & crave it. Why cant I give a nice guy a change or stop trying to start something with guys I know will never work out! Maybe I’m scared of love, scared to actually let someone love me, or worse me having to love someone. Scary I know! Lol I don’t know but whatever it is needs to stop. So back to my story, things moved way too quickly and I saw myself falling for this guys so of course I had to push him away, but it turns out he was just hurt his wife left him and he needed an escape and that escape was me. So that’s the end of my story, the always not so happily ever after. Lol But I’ve learned not to regret things cuz sometimes you have to just say fuck it, sometimes those are the best moments. Crazy how I still have the strongest craving for the worst thing for me. That’s life, eat a fucking peach cobbler and move on. So here I am once again back to square one. I’m trying to get my shit together, go to work, pay them bills and not sweat the small stuff.

Here’s a good advise; Don’t interfere in other people’s drama cuz you’ll get caught up in their bull shit too.

Well I’m fucking tired after a CRAZY weekend! Lol (No comment) So that’s all for now. Till I find time to write again at some other time. Love all you crazy fuckers who like to read my crazy stories! Lol A very tired Weezy

Good Night! xoxoxoxo

P.S. Janice that title was just for you! lol

Evil Bitches

Lesson of the Day,

So here is what I’ve leaned today;


Girls can be really really evil conniving bitches. Some girls will say and do anything to get what they want. Yes we all know that guys can be fucking assholes and heartless bastards, but most of them are so god damn stupid and ignorant that they don’t realize they are being assholes. Girls on the other hand are evil and malicious on purpose, they plan their evil schemes. I can be evil but not to the extent that some of these girls go to. For example some women think that a baby will bring couples closer but if he doesn’t love you now he never will. They trick these poor guys into getting them pregnant. If I ever trick a poor bastard with getting me pregnant it will not be to get him to stay or because it will make him want to be with me. Yes I will trick him because I will want a baby and then ditch the poor fucker, cuz all I would ever want and need from him is his sperm to get me a wonderful baby. Lol I know that’s crazy but that’s my point. Woman are crazy but the thing is that we all plan this shit but in the end most of it back fires on them. I knew woman were evil but did not realize it till I heard some crazy stories. Today I learned most girls probably will or most likely have cheated on their boyfriends! Second a woman knows what kind of man could be manipulated and how, and trust me she will learn how to do it. She will also find some power over you and use it against you all the time. I've planed out evil schemes and the've worked! but never something too exteme. Well I’m gonna stop there cuz I don’t want to give too much away but yeah I think I have been too nice! I need to step up by bitch game! Lol That’s all I’ve got for today, or better said that’s all I’ll say today cuz definitely there is a lot on my mind that needs to be let out before I explode Lol. xoxox



Weezy

Memorial Day

"Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, Too rude, too boist'rous; and it pricks like thorn."

I’ve been trying to write something all day but it seems I’ve lost all inspiration. Weekend was ok, went to one too many bbq’s. Ate way too much, and finally got that ice cream that I wanted. I spent way too much money, I had a fight, I cried, and lost all hope. I’m exited I have the whole week off but it seems like I will not enjoy it as much as I thought I would! Everyday I expect way too much and everyday my expectation fall short. You would think I would have learn by now, but I guess I just never learn. I will try and accept thing rather that convince the world otherwise. Just a little down today, no particular reason just same old shit as always. As it is Memorial Day, lets take a minute to remember and be thankful for all the troops, heroes, and fallen angels. Let’s be thankful for all that we have not sad for all the things we don’t. Time goes by too quickly and next thing you know you don’t realize how time just flew by. Well that’s all I have the strength for . Tomorrow is a new day, lets see how it all unravels. Wishing everyone Joy, Love & Happiness.

Keeping it Short & Sweet,

Weezy!

P.S. I hope John & Kate work it out, seems like everyone just lost hope on love lately. What ever happened to In sickness and in health, in poverty or in wealth, 'til death do us part? Its like one bad thing and everyone is just calling it quits! What a shame! Anyway hope they work it out!
　
“Good night, good night! parting is such sweet sorrow, That I shall say good night till it be morrow.”

Blog Virgin

Well, I've decided to take the plunge and pop my own blog cherry! Honestly I don't even know what to write about. I come up with some topics every now and then but I never commit to writing it, I guess somehow I'm scared to write, like its something very intimate and I would be exposed for the world to see, and judge. Gosh, I don't even keep a journal or diary, I just find it hard to write my thoughts down . . . So this is my first attempt: Speaking of cherries, do you remember your first time? Was it with someone special or just someone you barely knew? Did you plan it or did it just happen? Was it what you thought it would be or were you surprised? My first time happened in the spring a few years ago, with someone I cared about and thought it wasn't really planned and honestly not as smooth or as enjoyable as I'd hope. I think we were both so nervous that it was over before we knew we had done it. We pent most of the night 'fooling round' I guess you would say, pleasuring each other in many ways without going 'all the way'. Tenderly caressing and speaking softly while we rested in between, (we usually 'made love' for hours, never rushed) and it was finally at the break of dawn, and our last round for the night, that we 'just knew' and went all the way. I remember how it felt to have my body exposed to someone else, to have them so close their skin was my skin and his heat match mine and the exhilaration of our bodies building momentum that was barely in sync and was over quickly, (more for him than me) and it hurt of course from not being able to relax, but it felt good to finally experience that delicious melding of bodies and souls. Although it was memorable I would only rate the sexual experience part of it as ok. Don't get me wrong, but every other time after that was exponentially better than the last. It is as though our bodies were made to pleasure each other. The sad thing about this, is not that we are no longer together, but that no one has been able to match the levels of pleasure I experienced with my first! My second simply had no clue, the third and my only ONS had been around the block, but still had a few miles to go, and my forth was very HOT and dirty but lacked soul. So I wonder, was I just spoiled with my first, or is sex better when you really know the person you're with? For me sex should be 50% of a relationship and the other 50% everything else. I guess sex is important to me, not just the physical enjoyment, but the deep connection you can developed with someone through it.

P.S. Was this TMI for my first blog lol? First rule of writing is to write what you know and what you're passionate about. But if I have offended anyone . . . you just don't know what you're missing lol !

*~Ms. Afterglow ~*

Remember When Part II

Mood: Sleepy

Currently listening to: Put It On Me by Ja Rule ft Lil Mo

Back By Popular Demand……

I have so many memories good and bad that I’m thankful for. They define who I am today and what I love about life. They also remind me what I love most about my family and friends. Some of my favorite memories are those of “forbidden” ones too, because the more I remember the harder it is to forger. I want to be able to look back and not only remember the bad but the good as well. Everyone has there own version on how things were supposed to be, but look back at your life and you’ll see that the best things were always the most unpredictable, the mistakes, the misunderstandings and the “wrong” things. Things Happen for a reason. So till I no longer want what I could never have and embrace the truth, I shall blog.

• I think all of my really close friends that come to my house a lot have probably seen my mom naked
  
• Going bowling in providence and having Phil completely beat everyone every single time!(Lets not include the my drunk bowling incident, I’m still trying to forget that night!)
  
• My sister’s obsession with the X-Files
  
• When we went to see The Texas Chain Saw Massacre and Dar creeped up behind me and Jessica and scared the hell out of us
  
• Me, Bobby & Veronica walked out of a restaurant without paying
  
• Janice spilling acrylic powder on the rug, not once, not twice but three times
  
• “Cuidado Piso Mojado” “For Why” “The Cat is on Fire-El Gato Esta en Fuego” “Tu mami Es Muy Gorda”
• All of my Indecent Exposures!
  
• Me & Jessica tying to hit on dirty Mexican’s on Bergenline
  
• I couldn’t stop crying after I saw Broke Back Mountain
  
• When I pushed Eli off my bed
  
• When me, Jessica & Dar walked into the men’s bathroom at the movies and we were like “why is there a guy in here”
• All those fire alarm in South Hall at 2am
  
• Dar’s brother always putting his finger up my nose
  
• Tati’s long ass stories
  
• “Between me and you i wanna poke u in more than one way. fuck Facebook”
• Lena’s “Hello?” “Hello?” “Hello?
• Me and Jessica stold Dar’s car and took it for a ride
  
• When I thought I lost my phone but all that time it was under my bed
  
• Maurizio's cooking
  
• When I was late for chemistry I told Mr. Monahan I was hit by a car
  
• Pump It Up - Joe Budden
  
• “I Don’t Give a Fuck”
  
• Being in Little Shop of Horror's
  
• Having Dinner at Hosp
  
• Game Nights
  
• My Brother telling Dar she curses too much
  
• When Lena thought someone cut her hair
  
• Always having money to eat chinese food at lunch time
  
• Seems like senior year in high school there was always a party on the weekend and we were always getting drunk
  

Ok that's all I could remember for right now! I'm too tired to keep going! I'll write part III some other time! lol

Good Night & Sweet Dreams!

Special Comment on a Special Request: **Nelson was not my best kiss he was my most desirable kiss at the time****
Besides the all around “Best Lover” title has a different owner all together!

Weezy xoxo

Remember When?

Mood: Sad
Currently Listening to: It's Been a While - Staind
　
Some of my Favorite Memories,

• When Phil completely saran wrapped me in Sam’s Club and wouldn’t take it off the whole night. He took me to Walmart were the manager asked if it was a “Sorority” prank, then to Shaw’s were he told the cashier I was his adopted sister and had to be wrapped like that cuz I was crazy, then finally back to the dorms.
  
  
• Our High School “Cuban” Club! Olbidate! Azzuucaarrr! Cuba Libre! Lol
  
  
• Jessica’s “I GOT IT”
  
  
• When I told Maurizio I was pregnant
  
  
• “ Coca-Cola Hot Jam”
  
  
• My birthday dinner at the Cheesecake Factory junior year in college! We were like 25 people or more!
  


• Making Janice laugh so hard milk came out of her nose!
  


• Me going to Pathmark 1000000 times a day just to go see my boo NELSON! Lol (So far he’s been my best kiss)
  
  
• When Dar locked her car keys inside the back seat of her car & my dad was trying to get them out.
  


• Our Halloween Party
  


• “We are gonna do what the girls in the back always do, We gonna chill”
  
  
• Watching The Notebook with Darryl
  


• “Just Put it in my butt, my mother fucking butt”
  


• Brickways on Wickenden, East Side Pocket, Antonio’s Pizza.
  


• Our Spring Break Puerto Rico trip (having to drag our luggage across the park like 100 times) (oh and when my grandma told Anthony he needed to work out cuz he was too skinny)
  


• Going skinny dipping in Carmen’s pool
  
  
• Our Family’s Florida trip (Our DR trip was awesome too)
  


• Playing match maker with Phil & Jackie! And with Bob & Veronica
  


• “Sweater”
  


• Jessica’s “TELL ME WHY”
  


• “I Fucking Love Starbucks”
  


• Watching porn with Phil and all my roommates in Phil’s room and having Maurizio walk in with Chocolate fudge!
  


• Our High School Connecticut trip!
  


• “Beef Curtains”
  


• The JWU Wahooooooo
  


• “F7” (Dar that one is for you! Typing class)
  


• My sister walking right into a glass door in DR
  


• “Prank calling” Juan and having him call back cuz I didn’t block my number
  


• Dar getting mad drunk at china club and losing her shoes, falling, and trying to eat a pretzel off the street.
  


• “Liquor 43” “Thug Passion” “Malibu Pineapple” “Abuelita” Taking 12 Shots of Patron in one night!
  


• LETSSS GOOOOO……..(My & Phil’s Song)
  


• “Enrique” & “Fernando”
  


• Getting drunk on Mojitos in Havana Central
  


• “ OMG Luisa his dick was soooo small” lmao
  


• When Anthony & I got yelled at in class for laughing. ( In the same class me and Anthony fighting for the attention of Josh (We had the only crush on him) lol
  


• Paula’s stalker at the Grand Lux
  


• “You don’t know me bitch”
  
  
• Sitting in the Rec Room in South Hall
  


• My obsession with Michael Jackson, Christina Aguilera & Dawson’s Creek
  


• Breaking it down with Ashley to Footloose
  


• Having the girls drive up to Providence for my graduation(except Tati of course)
  


• Drunk dancing in Dar’s couch
  


• “Did you just call me Fat?”
  


• Visiting Eli in Boston
  


• Visiting Tati at Rutgers! ( although she never came to visit me at college! That hoe!) lol
  


• Singing Karaoke in Florida
  


• Banana King
  


• Sergio’s parties
  


• Making “Sex” noises with Chris
  


• Webster Hall
  


• Easter at AJ’s house
  


• A creepy guy kept holding my hand and asked me to marry him in Gonzalez & Gonzalez
  


• Our trips to the comedy club
  


• Our trips to BLVD East and our “talk to remember”
  


• Going to get Spanish food in Broad St.
  


• Breaking night talking to Deb at the front desk in South Hall
  


• “I Learned From the Best, I learned from Youuuuu.”
  


• “Bacalao”
  


• My Sister & Janice’s Obsession with Highlander & the Spice Girls
  


• Prom drama, the club & Seaside
  


• “Oh Shit Son, That’s my JAM!”

My Most Embarrassing Moment: Having my roommate walk in on me while having sex.

There were just too many to keep goin! But that's all for now! More to come later!

Weezy! xoxoxoxo

Love, Sex & Magic

Talk dirty to me….
　
Lets Talk about Sex! For some, sex is a science and for others is an art. There is so much we could talk about; stimulation of desire, types of embraces, caressing and kisses, biting, using your nails and or teeth, positions, slapping, moaning, oral sex, and don’t forget the big O! We could talk about our first time, how great or bad it could be. How you like it and of course, how it should be…….. Ok lets face it people there is nothing wrong with a little bump 'n grind if you know what I’m saying…. With the right person it could be magical. You hear it & See it everywhere. We all probably think about it minimum 13847357292028273654537292 times a day(or maybe that‘s just me) lol! Women love sex. In fact, some women think about it just as often, if not more, then guys. We fantasize constantly and at great length with great detail. We watch porn and we go to those little shops to buy little outfits(Just got a pink & black one) & toys (I’m a proud owner of a purple one! Lol) We probably get just as horny as the next guy.
We all have our preferences, how we like to start it off, the ride in between and of course the climax.
My kind of sex starts with a little playfulness(some teasing if you will) follow by full on foreplay. It can’t be lacking in passion or creativity either. He needs to make me feel sexy & comfortable cuz lets face it most women are a little self conscious when we are naked. That’s the time were we feel most vulnerable as well(at least for me). He needs to have that je ne sais quoi! He needs to pay attention to detail cuz that’s what matter most. Most women I know prefer all that stuff before the sex (the teasing of the breasts and and the licking of the nipples with your tongue, the fingering, the dirty talk, the role playing…. ect) for most of us intercourse doesn’t always do it.
He just needs to know how to take care of me! He needs to shut the hell up and just go down and eat it!(oh shit did I just say that out loud?) lol Hmmmm yeah like I was saying if he takes care of me than I’ll def return the favor! Lol

There is nothing wrong with a little sex here and there, but the best kind of sex is when you make love to someone you care about, and the worst is when you're trying to fill a void! Just remember to keep it safe kids! USE PROTECTION! lol
Sorry kids if I’m being too graphic but lets face it we all love it and cant get enough of it! Lol Anyway I wont bore you with too much info but my point was to start a conversation, a war or a civilized talk on sex. So lets Coffee Talk and share with us some of your sexual fantasies! Feel free to post some of your favorite, best and worst sex experience. Favorite positions, weirdest and most embarrassing stories you got. You share with me & I’ll share with you!

That’s all for now! I gotta go find some new batteries! Lol j/k! Or Am I?? wwwwwahahahahha

Till next time,
Your biggest temptation, and deepest desires! ;o)~ Your’s Truly, Weezy baby! Lol

P.S. I’m kind of shy, but I would like to work on is my dirty talking skills! I feel like and idiot when I try to do it! Lol (any tips?)
　
A survey by Marie Claire and Esquire magazines found that men prefer rear entry sex (doggy style), while women prefer the missionary position.

Friendship

Ok so I really didn’t have an interest to write again. I feel like people take my blog too literally or just misinterpret my words. I write what’s on my mind with no intention to hurt or judge anyone. Anyway this morning I wake up and start snooping around people’s pages and what not, so I came a cross this girls blog. She’s not really a friend just someone I went to college with and she’s just another face in the crowd to me. Anyway I was reading her blog and she happened to have a good point on friendship. What really constitute someone as a friend? An acquaintance? Or a BFF? Recently there has been these huge craze with Myspace and Facebook with people adding you and becoming your “friend”. Call me crazy but look at all your friends on Myspace and Facebook and ask yourself how many of those 300 people are really your friends? How many of them do you call often or trust? I recently had a girl request me as a friend but I honestly never really got to know her. I saw her in Pathmark and she totally pass by me and never said a word to me. I was like so why the fuck are we friends on Myspace??? Hmmm idk I thought that was interesting. It seems to be ok to add all these people as friends but some of them you probably never even had a conversation with. I guess is more like the more “friends” it seems you have the more popular you are? To me those people are probably the loneliest. I’m sure you’ll meet so many people thru out your life but only a hand full if you’re lucky will be with you for a lifetime. I’ve learn to try and not hold on too tight, let them go cuz the good one’s will always stay around. You have to stand clear of those fake friends, the one’s that only call you when they need something, or when you feel like the friendship is not mutual. You have to feel like someone is genuinely your friend because they like who you are or how they make you feel. Special friends as well as your significant other take hard work. You will see yourself doing things you don’t want to be doing, having them borrow things you will never see again. Having to compromise and most importantly swallowing your pride and having to say you’re sorry. They will disappear on you, diss you and probably not call you when you want them too. You will probably hate each other at one point, and feel like shit has changed. You will probably fight a bout the same boy/girl. Yes true friends will fight constantly and they will probably tell you shit you don’t want to hear but at the end of the day you know they have your best interest at heart. I’m know to always say the wrong things at the wrong times and for causing trouble too. But as a friend don’t I have the right to speak my mind as well? If something is bothering me don’t I have the right to say something about it, or better yet blog about it? A true friend will always accept and be there no matter how many crazy shit you get into or how many bad decisions you make. Being a true friend is accepting that you are both different, you will have different ideas and believes but at times you have to agree to disagree. Anyway my point is that I’ve never held a gun to someone’s head to be my friend. You are there cuz you want to be not because I’m making you. The door is always open as well, feel free to leave, breakup with me if you will. The same door will always be open if you decide you want to come in. A true friend will always find their way back to your heart no matter what you both been thru or how far the distance has been. I have hundreds of acquaintance, few friends and a hand full of bff’s. I always treasure those who have respect for me, who will do anything for me, who will defend me, and lastly someone who can share a quite moment with me. To be considered a bff not only do you get the best of me(And not for nothing but I can be fucking awsome and fucking halarious too! ;o)~) but you have to accept me at my worst as well(Yes I can get a little emotional and crazy!). You don’t have to be in constant touch with each other but as long as you send me a hi here and there just to let me know you’re thinking of me lets me know you care.


That’s all for now, I guess I was just missing some close and far away friends today.

With Love,

Weezy.

P. S. Boys/Girls have the bad habit of complaining about our “love interest”. He’s an ass, he did this and he did that. She's a cunt, she broke my heart blah blah blah. So as a friend what are we supposed to think? So we immediately judge them too, we think ok they are an ass and you shouldn’t be with him/her. but when you try and judge them too, or try to tell you how bad they are for you then you get mad and think we are being a bad friend. If you don’t want us to judge them then don’t complain about how bad he’s treating you or how fucked up she can be when you go back with them. As a friend we want what’s best for you and we try to give you advise only by what you tell us.


Sooo Tell me again, That we'll be Lovers and Friends, Sometime I wanna be your lover, Sometime I wanna be your friend……… (lol sorry this song just came to mind while I was finishing this blog! Lol)

What Would You Do?

Ok so you find out you have only a few years to live, who knows maybe months. So what now? What would you do differently? Would you go hide under a rock and feel sorry for yourself??? Quit your job?? Would you gather the courage to tell that one person how you really feel about them? Send everyone a letter telling them how much you love them??

My Bucket List (Top 10 Things I want before I die):

1. I feel so left behind these days. I'm 25 and by now i thought i would be married with at least 5 kids and maybe even be divorced! But Yeah before I die I would like to get married. I want the whole "White" Princess dress, and that whole "Fairy Tale" wedding with that whole happily ever after b.s. (If I only have months to live maybe I'll just pay someone to marry me! no? Oh well just a thought! lol)

2. I would like to go to Italy or maybe just take a long ass vacation overseas and explore. Maybe even set foot on each of the seven continents. I want to try and experience new things within each place I visit.

3. Experience a threesome. (This will be my husband's day before the wedding gift!) lol

4. I would like to throw a huge party and invite every one of my friends. Everyone I care about.

5. Passionately make love to someone & have someone passionately make love to me! ;o)~ ( WoW Is it me or is it getting hot in here? )

6. Eat everything and anything I want without feeling guilty.

7. Fall deeply in love -- helplessly and unconditionally. I want to experience that crazy little thing called Love! (Hmmm this should be coming from both sides, cuz i've done the one sided love thing and it doesn't work!) lol

8. Go Sailing

9. Win the lottery even if I don’t get to keep the money, I just want to know how it feels to win it! lol

10. Be in a movie (Maybe have Vin Diesel play my lover! That would be awesome! Fuck that this is now my # 1! lol)

This bucket list was really hard to write. It’s hard to think of non material things you want that will bring you happiness. Anyway this is just a short list of things I would like to do before I die!


Another set of Confessions (Usher has nothing on me) lol:

1. I wish every single person who smokes deliberately everyday would get cancer. Just like women who get hit by their b/f or husband. If you stay with him, then yes you deserved that shit. lol some people should get what they deserve, what goes around comes around.

2. I'm a masochist! Deep down I feel like maybe I enjoy the pain. I always go back for more! ;o)~ ( I hope my husband is aggressive! I need a man that can put me in my place, Smack me up a little if you know what I'm saying! Fuck nice guys, they are just boring!) lol

3. I used to wish you the same pain you bestowed upon me, but deep down i never wanted to see you hurt. I would take all your pain away if I could.

4. I still feel angry at myself for being so stupid. (but like I said in #1 everyone gets what they deserve, maybe this is what I get after all)

5. You are not the only person I hated and thru under a bus, But just like our friendship fell apart and then back together so did hers and mine. You just took a lot longer.

Ok this is all I got for today! (My manager just totally read this! He now thinks i'm weird! lol but that's what he gets for being nosy!) lol

Stay tooned bitches till next time!

Weezy! xoxo

P.S. Dont give up on love people. You will find it when its right! Takes 10000 wrong tries to finally find "The One"

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus,

Men and women are different, we think, we act, and we feel different about certain things. We wanted equality in the cense that we do not want to be looked down upon but looked as capable as men to do great things. Men have a greater physical strength and women can be more reliable, practical and logical. Which brings me to the point about how we both think so differently. Lets start with Sex. Most men feel like they have to fuck the whole world to feel like they are “MEN” Or to gain experience! Because the more you do it the better you are at it! Practice makes perfect right??? The more women you sleep with the better lover you are. Now lets apply this to a women, if she has the need to sleep around to gain “experience” well that girl is nothing but a hoe! Right? Most girl don’t have the need to fuck the whole neighborhood to “gain experience”. We are also more likely to sleep with someone because we have feelings for them not because we are horny. Now lets take “Friends with benefits” for example. For men this a person who is a “Friend” which the call upon to have sex or whatever, a booty call per say, same for a girl I guess. Ok so here is the difference. If a girl is sleeping with a guy and she finds out he has “feelings” for her when she doesn’t then she will break it off. If a guy knows a girl has feeling for him he really doesn’t give a fuck, he will keep fucking her and her best friend and everyone else he calls “friends with benefit” As long as he’s getting ass he doesn’t care who he hurts. A girl will usually have a booty call or a “friend with benefits” while a guy will have like five or six. See a girl thinks before she acts, usually probably over thinks things. A girl is thinking if he’s sleeping with me then he must have some kind of “Attraction” to me, but a guy will fuck anything that walks, he will fuck you then think about how wrong it was after, and will probably just keep on doing it. See most guys swear the are so “Real” and they tell the truth right??? Well they usually tell a lie before he fucks you then he tells u the truth right after. Like “I just want to make love to you” then when he’s done fucking you he’ll probably tell you some bull shit story. Like I said before you can’t make love to someone you don’t love, but if it gets her in bed with you then its ok to say it, as long as you clarify it after then it makes it ok. I guess the “Attraction” gets the best out of guys right?? Anything to get them ass, no matter who wrong it is. Girls just have to move on and get over it, and over them. Men always have some “great love” or some “ex-girlfriend” that they’ll never forget or shut up about. Oh but whatever you do, don’t tell him to get over it or over her! Lol oh boy! DRAMA! Lol You see guys claim they love this girl but why where you fucking me and ten different other women?? Guys always realize you lost a good one once they are gone. And a girl might not know how much better it could be. You will never find happiness unless you find happiness within what you already have. I’m just trying to speak My truth.

Over and Out.

Here are my top 5 confessions:

1. I never told you the whole truth because you never told me the whole truth. You have no idea what was said between us. We made a pact that day. (Like you’re not the only one she calls, at one point we thought it was a good idea for two enemies to unite. But I used her for my advantage cuz I could never hurt you, but I also never told you after I knew you will never have the same courtesy with me)

2. I never took that pill….

3. You’re indifference and lack of respect for me hurts more then your ignorance.

4. After all is said and done I will never look at you the same way.

5. I will not tell anyone, because I will not fight it, I don’t need your judgment.

There is sooo much more I wish I said and wish I had the courage to say those things still left to say.
　
Till next time,

Weezy Baby.

Word of the Day: SUPPORT

One thing that I’ve noticed in this fast-paced society of ours is that not many people are willing to help or support one another. This applies to many things: holding doors for people, giving the elderly or pregnant women seats, even people who purposely cut others in front of lines. Our society lacks support and I think that’s one of the reasons why we are all in this crippling mess financial mess. In the land where selfishness rules, we are always waiting for someone else to do the giving, and we never feel like we should get our hands dirty. I’ve had people shove their way into a subway car without giving anyone the courtesy to get out first. You get the same people who constantly help over and over again and and the same other people just stand there with their hand out, or waiting for someone else to come and save the day, making the scales of giving and receiving uneven.

Not only is this egocentric behavior prevalent in the outside society, but this conduct seeps into our homes straight to the heart of our own families. Siblings not willing to help one another, couples who constantly fight about cleaning or money, and no one compromising. We’ve all turned our backs on one another and instead of giving a helping hand, we are more concerned about how we can help ourselves.
I’m not saying to become a saint, but instead of selfishly concentrating on our own agendas, we should all take a look outward and find different ways of extending ourselves in an altruistic way.

-sk

Rainbow’s and Butterflies

Dear Readers,

I know that most of my blogs might come across a bit angry or maybe a little naggish, but contrary to popular believe I kind of don’t see it that way. Maybe I’m wrong but I like to think of myself as a happy person. Yes I’m a little quiet and reserved at times and if you ask most of the people that know me I don’t think I come across as an angry or even a bitter person. I don’t think I’ve ever lashed out at anyone in my life or even had a big fight with anyone. See the problem is that I hold too much shit inside and then when I cant hold it in anymore instead of biting someone’s head off I blog. I might not be Miss Happy fucking Sunshine all the time who’s life is nothing but rainbow’s and butterflies but I try to be positive and see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yes I know I can be pessimistic, a bit depressed , maybe even moody at times but seriously who isn’t? I’m a girl for god’s sake! Lol See when I’m at work I always have a smile on my face even though all I want to do is cut my veins cuz I cant fucking stand to be there! But I put a smile on my face and try to make the best of it. Most of my friend say I really don’t express my feeling or say what I’m really thinking but I don’t know I think I have a hard time talking or expressing my feelings to people, and that’s why I blog. I hate when people ask me “what’s wrong?”, or “are u mad at me?” cuz I’m really not gonna tell you, I like to deal with shit on my own. Sometimes when I’m mad at someone I might need a day or two away from them to just get my shit together and settle down, tomorrow I might not even remember why I was mad in the first place. All my bff’s know that even though I might be mad at them for tops maybe a day, I will still always love them! This is my form of venting , and if you don’t like it than don’t read it! I will try and balance out some of my blogs for you guys, I’ll try and write some happy shit. Lol Although I think happy shit is just boring! Most of my best work is when I’m “emotional” no? Oh well that’s all I got for now! Stay toon till my next blog (whenever that will be! Lol)

Till I find something better to do with my time,

Weezy Baby! xoxoxox

Oh again if you guys have any topics or questions for me feel free to leave a comment and ask. And if you really want to know something about me or just want to ask me something but don’t want to ask you can ask anonymously and I’ll answer you as trustful and honest as I can.

WORD OF THE DAY: Beauty

Right on my desk, I have a box of little Angel cards, that single words written on them. I find that they help me focus and reflect on things going on in my life.
Today’s word made me laugh since I am in the business of a particular kind of beauty. It may sound cliché, but beauty is everywhere. It’s what some people look like to others in the morning. It’s the person giving you their seat on the subway. It’s when you are working on a project and your feeling good about it.
Often, and I am guilty of this myself, we overlook the beautiful things in our life because we are focusing on the beauty that’s being pushed on us. We focus on the airbrushed covers of Vogue and Marie Claire and beat ourselves up for not having that flawless skin, that perfectly fitting dress, those color eyes. Mainstream pushes these images so much that we forget all of the work that goes behind it. You have PROFESSIONAL photographers, who know how to pose the actor/actress and get that perfect shot. Speaking of the perfect shot, do you know how many frames they take to land THE ONE? More than likely, hundreds. Then, they have wardrobe people, who coordinate the threads to what looks good on the person and they have wardrobe changes. THEN, you got make up, where a PROFESSIONAL make up artist makes them up according to background, lighting, clothes and of course the person’s face. Then when they finally done with all of that, have the shot that they want, you get someone behind the computer to photoshop the whole thing. Removing shadows, correcting less-than-perfect complexions, removing stray threads, tags, imperfection from clothes. They have even gone as far as to remove limbs, like a stray hand or an awkwardly photographed arm.
Beauty should be universal and not this processed cheese that is being shoved down our throats. Beauty should warm the heart, inspire and touch the soul. Has there ever been a time where you were touched by beauty?

-sk

Guess Who's Backkkkk?

I’m infamous for overreacting to shit, jumping to conclusions, over thinking and for doing something stupid and then regretting it later. I’m human, people make mistakes and yes I mostly think with my heart and not my head. But looking back I don’t think I’ve been that fucking stupid. Talk is cheap and actions DO speak louder than words, they also mean a whole lot more. I wish I could tell people what’s really on my mind, without offending or causing some catastrophic chain of events. So here is what’s really on my mind today. I think I rather be single for the rest of my life, than be stuck with some wack ass loser. Oh and can someone please tell me if there are any “real” and interesting people out there?????? What happened to those day when we used to admire people and want to be just like them?? Can you really name someone around you that you can honestly say wow I really admire you and want to be just like you! Nah people are fucking retards now days. I’m starting to lose respect for the majority of the people I know. I know no one is perfect and there are just things that are out of your control but come on people lets get it together. You have these guys trying to “talk” to you which is nice I guess but come on! come up with some real or original shit to say. Telling a girl how much money you make or how big you cock is, is soo not attractive. Oh and constantly bringing your ex-girlfriend up is something I DO NOT want to fucking hear one more god damn time. And whatever you do don’t tell me you don’t like something or like to do something and then I see you with it or doing whatever it is you “hate” doing. If you are gonna lie about something than be consistent and don’t get caught. I hate that people swear they can get away with stupid shit. I know people who can be so fake around different people, they are always pretending to be something else for the attention or just to be liked. And I’m sure we all know that one person who is always like “ I never want to be like that or act like that” but guess what bitch YOU ARE EXACTLY JUST LIKE THAT! People always have some opinion or judgment about everything else but themselves. I’m tired of giving out advise, defending myself, justifying my actions, who and what I do. I do what I want when I want and who I want to do it with. Your judgment and stupidity doesn’t phase me. I rather be alone than intertwine my life with such low, uneducated, pieces of shit out there. I like to keep somethings to myself, I dont have the need to always tell everyone everything or go post it up for the world to see. Grow some god damn balls and do something worth admiring, not for anyone else but for yourself. I thought I was angry but that would just be paying these stupid ass people too much mind, I guess I’m just indifferent to there stupidity.

Well that’s all my aggravation for today. Over and out. Till next time, go out and enjoy all the good shit life has to offer.

Weezy Baby

P. S. Don’t fucking call me! I’ll call you!

Irritation to the highest degree

It seems like certain people still like to play pretend.

Simply Complicated

It seems like these days, things are just a lot more complicated. Naturally, life complicates as we get older, but what I’m talking about is more of a material complexity and not the legal or emotional issues that come with it.

Have you notice that a lot of us are consumed by stuff?

I am not a rich girl by any means, but it seems like the more crap I have/get,(with the exception of books) the more unhappy I am. I have all of my soap making equipment, books, clothes, makeup that are really minimal to what I’ve seen in my friend’s houses and yet I feel totally overwhelmed. Gluttonous even.

I have a medium sized Sephora gift bag that doubles as my make up case and I really don’t wear that much make up. I have cleansers and potions lined up in my medicine cabinet, below the sink and along the tub. Being naturally indecisive, I love the option of things, but I remember a time where I blissfully happy when I was able to purchase my own bubble bath from Rite Aid. For the bargain price of $3.99, my mold-ridden, broken-tiled bathroom became a spa oasis. I was Cleopatra, bathing my personal lagoon filled with milky bubbles, which was a nice contrast to my murky, gray surroundings.

Living with my father, we were definitely living at poverty level. My clothes were all hand-me-downs from various strangers and before I started working, I never had the luxury of any luxury. Bar of soap and 1 bottle of shampoo was what I had in the bathroom – and we are talking about 1995 here. There was no such thing as condition for a girl who nearly had hair down to her back. It was only when I started working at fifteen that I supplied myself with girly things (and food, but that’s another story). Not that I was making beaucoup bucks then, but if I bought myself something nice, let’s say a $5 L’Oreal lipstick, I was over the moon and used said lipstick till it was a little nub. And that went for everything perfume, nail polishes (oh god, I think that I was my only real collection then, was a bunch of little $.99 nail polish bottles). I used the items till they were GONE or destroyed and I guess because I didn’t have much of a choice.
When I would get paid, I would take a bus to Hoboken to my favorite chic-chic aromatherapy store to buy candles. Since they were expensive, I don’t remember buy too many at a clip – maybe 1 with a holder. Anyway, I remember how magical it felt to light up a small $6 votive. The room filled with its sweet, dark berry scent and its light warmed me right down to my core, so much that the warmth of the memory still exists with me today. Sometimes I think back to those days and long to recreate that feeling.

Now a days, I feel like I’ve gone on a gluttonous binge without the happy novelty side-effects. I buy a lipstick, or expensive eye shadows (these days it’s not Wet and Wild anymore), and although the product is better and I just cannot seem to conjure the same feelings of the past. Sure, swiping on that brand-new lipstick may make me feel glamorous for a minute, but the novelty quickly fades away. New products seduce me rather quickly and all of my older products take a back seat or fall down the rabbit hole. Our society is driven by the whole “Bigger is Better” and we are always looking for the next big thing. I feel like it’s ruining me, ruining my enthusiasm for anything. It’s so unfortunate because I realize often how blessed I am to be where I am. It isn’t big by anyone’s standard… I believe median at a national level, but I can buy whatever the heck I want without really making any real sacrifice and what I mean by REAL, I mean sacrificing food and shelter – not a night at the movies.
Although my collection of things are smaller than what I’ve seen at other people’s houses, I feel like certain aspects of my life are getting out of hand like my make up collection. I don’t even wear that much makeup, much less go out to really need a peacock blue eye shadow, I became a fragrance whore once I was able to afford Bath and Body Works, but my tastes have evolved towards the more refined scents of Chanel No. 5 and Christian Dior. Not that I have many of those either, but I can tell you I have more than two coupled with other body sprays and roll on oils and other skin fresheners. The sad part is that I have many half-used perfumes and body sprays and it will probably take me years of daily use to actually finish them.

Although I don’t nearly collect as much stuff as most people (from what I have seen), I feel like my own excesses are just downright inexcusable. Gluttony has certainly prevailed, just look at all of the people who just buy stuff on credit, buy houses that are now being foreclosed, have closets filled with clothes that still have the tags on them. Maybe this recession isn’t so bad. I wonder if it’ll change our way of thinking possibly reversing this mess, reversing our thinking and force us to be more appreciative of what we already have.

-sk

Cruel (but honest) Intentions

Last week, I made a decision that one would most likely classify as the high school variety. I ended a relationship with a friend whom I didn’t want to be friendly with anymore.
We started out as pretty good friends, but certain snubs changed the whole chemistry of it. No longer did I feel like I enjoyed my friend’s company. I felt her annoying, childish and obscenely self-indulgent. I guess I couldn’t expect much for someone who doesn’t have any responsibilities and crashes on everyone’s couch. After a while, I found her to be deceitful. She was everyone’s friend, learning everyone’s individual “pleasure” points and catering to them when they were around. She felt the need to be the center of things and constantly adding to her menagerie of friends. Maybe I’m too high on my horse, but I really do detest such dishonesty. Then I became irritated at myself, for holding on to something that I was truly not happy with. Time filled the cracks and widened our differences, to the point of me really not wanting to salvage anything.

Cruel? Maybe. I did it for me and I feel more peaceful, more honest as a result. It was the classic scenario of a broken relationship. Most people probably think I should have let it die a natural death, but I disagree.

Why do people seem to think that friendships are exempt from breakups?

-sk

News Update!

Dear fellow readers,

We’ve been slacking off a little lately, I guess most of us have lost a little of that inspirations that we had when we first started this blog. Its king of hard to just come up with topics out of your head all the time. I usually don’t go back and read most of the nonsense I’ve written in the past, but I know I repeat myself sometimes. I don’t want to keep boring you with the same old crap, but I’ll just give you a little update on what I’ve been up to lately. Work still remains the source of all evil! I even wrote a resignation letter to throw at them when I just cant take it anymore. I’ve been reading a lot lately, I guess it keeps me entertained till I’m ready to go to bed at night. My sister and I just hosted a book club meeting at our house, and I think it was a huge successes if I might add! Lol With my sister’s Martha Stuart skills and my culinary background and charming skill we can pull anything off! Lol heheh ! But Yeah If you’re looking for a good adult book to read OMG I soooo recommend reading the Black Dagger Brotherhood Series by J.R Ward. You will love them and like most of us you will not want to put them down. My ipod is damaged and I don’t feel complete without it. I need my music at all times. I’m actually heading to the city to have it fixed. My friend are all dealing with their own demons lately, but that’s just life. And I know I’ve said this before but sometimes it doesn’t matter how much time passes by or how much things change, some people just never change. I find it so hard to believe that some friendship can be so complicated. Sometimes I feel like I need a fucking dummies’ guide to being someone’s friend, there are all these rules and regulations. You are afraid to say things around them, afraid to speak your mind because you might just say the wrong thing. Afraid to ask them a question without offending them, Never mind telling them the truth. You have to time your call’s and that’s even if you bother to call at all or if either of you feel like picking up the phone. Oh and phone tag just gets old! You call they text, you text they call. Sometimes its just easiest not to care. Sometimes I wish things will go back to the way they used to be but some things are better left behind. I’m neither angry nor bitter any more things happen for a reason and you need to accept them and move on. I love my family and all my friends equally.

P.S. I’ll try and write more guys just be patient! Love & Miss you all!

Weezy

movin on up

I'm hittin the blog today because I was inspired by one of my coworkers (at the job that i freakin hate that shall remain nameless). Anyway- she always wanted to backpack in europe and she found noone to go with her so guess what- she went all by herself for 6 months or so. Could you imagine going to different countries all ALONE? she didnt have families or relatives over there. AND, she didn't even reserve hotels or anything- she just decided to wing it...so she arrived at italy with no hotel room, no friends, nothing! i think thats so crazy. i wish i had the balls to do that. moral of the story... TAKE RISKS!! DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO!! life is short... do what truly makes you happy....

tHE EAgLE HaS Landed!

So i'm soOoOoOo sorrrryyy.........i kno it took me a year and a dayyyyyyyyy but ahhh life rite is a lil lOca rite nowwwww..................and like im just getting everything tOgether...don't wanna be crazyyyyy ne more and i think that wat will help meee is just wOrKing hard & dOing wat i have to do and no stressss just letting it gO and spending time with all my besties!!! its onli 2 more months of this crazy nesss lol butts almost over!!! so i like this blog thing....i feel good but i gots to gow now be bakkk toniteeee just wanna leave u with something I once read and it really is wat is issssssss LOVE U! peaceeee, loveeee n haiR GreAse!!!!!

this is especially fOr Lucioussss- better late than never!

Just because I love this..
Current mood: peaceful

Let It Go.. By T.D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this!
When people can walk away from you: let them walk..


I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you,
loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you,
staying attached to you.
I mean hang up the phone.


When people can walk away from you let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

People leave you because they are not joined to you.
And if they are not joined to you,
you can't make them stay.
Let them go.


And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person,
it just means that their part in the story is over.
And you've got to know when people's
part in your story is over so that you
don't keep trying to raise the dead.


You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something.
I've got the gift of good-bye.
It's the tenth spiritual gift,
I believe in good-bye.


It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful,
and I know whatever God means for me to have
He'll give it to me.
And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.
Stop begging people to stay.
Let them go!!


If you are holding on to something
that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,
then you need to ..LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...
LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...
LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you .....
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge ..
LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction ...
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or
talents ..
LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude...
LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...
LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new
level in Him...
LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....
LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help
themselves..
LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ...
LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling
yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...
LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past.
Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing for 2008 !!!
LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then
LET IT GO!!!

Splenda, Artificially Sweet, Just Like You!

It looks like sugar, it taste like sugar but it is NOT sugar. It’s artificially sweet, fake, an imposter hiding in plane sight. Good substitute at the time but in the long run it could be bad for your health. It’s kind of like “love” It feels real, it seems real but it is NOT love. It’s artificial, fake and it could fool a lot of people. It seems genuine and fulfilling at the time but in the long run someone always end up hurt. Zero calories, so how bad can it be? It won’t add calories but you might get cancer in the end. Should we settle for the artificial stuff? Is it good enough for the time being? You love someone but they don’t love you! Should you settle for being friends and secretly love them from afar? Would bits and pieces be enough for you of their time and their love while deep down you know he love someone else??? They don’t lie; they tell you straight from the beginning the whole truth but you don’t listen. He tells you that you could never amount to the love they had but you try and try anyway. You want to fight for him and keep the hope and faith alive, but the label clearly says IT IS NOT SUGAR. How do people fake that love stuff so well? If they really cared wouldn’t they have let you go from the beginning? Why keep you around? You can’t make love to someone you don’t love, right? In the end you realized you were only left with a terrible after taste and a broken heart. You lose the friendship and all the empty promises to each other. You want to know what happened to all the “I will always be here for you” speeches? But all that just seem so far behind. So you ask yourself what’s next??? You say you will never ever buy that Spenda shit again but only to fall into the trap of Sweet & Low.


Till next time,

Weezy

cancerous thoughts

So how many of you know someone who has cancer? I've always been afraid of cancer- not only for myself, but for everyone I know. It seems like everyone everywhere is affected by it in some way or another. If its not yourself its a family member, a friend- and I just figured it would eventually affect me somehow one day, and I was right.

And I don't mean to be a debbie downer, I know people don't usually like to talk about health during coffee talk, but I was just thinking- how hard is it to die of old age nowadays? If it's not cancer, its a stroke or a heart attack, a car accident...it's like russian roulette- wherever the ball lands, well that's how you're gonna go, and you can't do shit about it.

Well anyway, I think it's crazy how diseases like cancer work.... your body is basically killing itself from the inside. And you go about your daily business with no idea of whats going on...how horrible is that! And why do people get cancer now more than ever? Maybe its the pollution or all that shit they put in processed foods now, but seeing the circumstances, I think everyone should be screened for every type of cancer there is. Yes, women get mammograms over 40, men get their prostates checked...but that's not enough. People don't usually check their lungs, colons, intestines, etc. for cancer. So most people aren't lucky enough to find cancer in its early stages- only when the symptoms are bad enough for you to decide to go to the doctor.

I hope that didn't depress you all. But health is just as important as love, and all that good stuff.

Questions

I swear I feel like my brain just never stops. I think this is why I cant sleep at night cuz my brain is always on. I don’t know how many questions I ask myself everyday. Like what to expect when your expecting? I’m not pregnant but I would like to know. Also why do I feel so violated every time I go to the Gyno? I know she’s a doctor but still its hard not to feel awkward when your vagina is in some woman’s face. My Favorite question is when I’m I ever gonna go back to Providence?? Rhode Island sucks ass but some of my besties live there so I think I should make the effort! And why is it that all these old men are always hitting on me? Ewww seriously! And the question I ask myself everyday is what the fuck is wrong with me?? Geez! Trust me you don’t want to know what goes on in my head on a daily basis, Its quite scary. Lol Like the other day I was on the path on my way to work and I was listening to my Ipod kinda loud and I wondered if these people where judging me by my music choice. Not that I gave a fuck but I wonder if people judge me by the music I listen to?? Idk its weird things like this I wonder from day to day! When I see people making out I wonder if they really love each other. If there is such thing as true love. Sometimes I stare at people and wonder what their life is like and if they are hiding any horrible secrets. lol When I lay down at night I wonder if I ever cross your mind or if you ever randomly think of me or dream about me? Do you miss me? I try to write every night before I go to bed, even though I don’t post most of it but this helps me organize my thoughts and find meaning in all the craziness. I’ve come a long way, yes I’ve changed from the naïve little girl I used to be. Now I’ve grown to become a smart young woman. Wiser and respected I hope. I’ve been angry lately, at myself mostly, but that’s not who I am. I myself don’t know exactly who yet but I’m working on becoming a better person. I want to love myself and be the reason I’m happy not find my happiness in someone else. I don’t want to be that girl that doesn’t have a life other than her man. I want to have my own friends and rely on myself. I don’t want to have to rely on someone else or be defined by who I’m with. I want to be my own person, proud of everything I do. Having this questions is a normal part of life especially questions you have about yourself and your life. I’m gonna be happy and I’m gonna be me whether you like it or not. Don’t let anyone stand in your way and always ask those hard questions, they make you who you are.

P.S. I know I said I wasn’t going to write till certain people stepped up their game but I’ve realized that you cant make someone do something that they don’t want to. Their empty promises and indifference should not stop me from doing what I want or restrain me from saying what I have to. So with that said I’ll be writing till I no longer find words.

Till I no longer miss you ,

Weezy

OUR 1,000TH VIEW!!!

WE HIT OUR 1,000TH VIEW TODAY!!! YAY!! AND WE JUST GOT STARTED!! pats on the back, all around!!!

Guess the lyrics...

don't google them...let's see if anyone knows what this song is/who its by:


If I had to do it over, If I had to do it again
I would've known, too and this would have neva began
If I made you claustrophobic, Betcha if I gave u an inch
You'll neva know this but there's no one quite like, no one quite like you

I try to forget ya but you're all I wanna do
I can do better but there's no one quite like you

If I made you love me again (If I made you luv me again)
If I made you want it again (If I made you want it again)
If I gave it you probably wouldn't want it, babe
It's alright cause there's no one quite like you

I try to forget ya but you're all I wanna do
I can do better but there's no one quite like you

Excuses

Ok so I wanted to start this blog by complaining about my job because as usual they start my morning by needing way too much of me. Plus I was super late to work and I really couldn’t give a fuck, people don’t get anywhere by complaining. Let's talk about how sometimes all I hear lately is blah blah blah my life this, my life that! I don’t give a fuck! Your shit is way too tragic for me. You don't like something well change it, Stop your complaining cuz I can care less besides you probably have no one to blame but yourself. I take responsibility for my actions and accept shit that cannot be changed. I've learned from my mistakes and I will try my best not to repeat them again. Some people just don’t get it, it’s like watching a train wreck over and over again, and they wonder why shit happens to them. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much you try to give advice cuz at the end they do what they want and end up with the same result. I try to write shit down, and trust me must shit I write down doesn't make it here; most people couldn't handle the truth. I'm not trying to be mean but sometimes you get tired of hearing the same shit over and over again. I disguise my words and subliminally try to send you messages but you still don’t fucking get it. Let’s also touch on the subject we all been wondering about but not saying. Like the 5 people who started this blog and only 3 have written something (75% which have been me). In 2 month you couldn’t find 5 minutes to sit down and write something down? Maybe if you would put as much effort to writing a blog as you do making up excuses for why you don’t that maybe we would have something. I rather have the truth than hear excuses or get the same old runaround. Shit just gets old. I say this with all honesty cuz to truly love someone you accept all their fucked up flaws and eventually you just learn to accepted it. If it’s not hurting you or getting in your way, you have to accept people for who they are. You can't change anyone. You have to learn to love them with all their flaws or just simply walk away .I’m here for you when you need a shoulder to cry, and I hope you’ll be there for me too. I’m sure we are all grown up here and we all have minds of our own, people don’t need to be spoon fed everything. Lets all grow up and move on, no excuses necessary.

I’m going on a strike; this is my last blog till a certain someone steps up to the plate. In the mean time I’ll be working on my debut book.Till I write again, I hope you love me more, think of me more, and appreciate me more.

P.S Keep trying, but as much as you try, you could never be anything like me. Cuz I certaintly dont want to be anything like you. Nigga you dont know me!

Con Mucho Amor(Walter Mercado Style) Weezy Baby!

Damn is it lunch time yet?? :o)~

My Happy Place

Oh Hot Damn, oh oh oh, oh oh oh, Oh shit son this is my Jam…. That’s right you know what I’m talking about. We all have that song that when it comes on you lose your mind and scream that’s my song. Whether it be a slow song or a song with a phat ass beat that just makes you want to break out in a sick choreographed move just like Quest Crew, point is you just need to let it out. I personally just like to rip my clothes off and dance naked in my room but that’s just me, I get it on and poppin. (I secretly like to dance to Footloose, but shhhh don’t tell anyone) Lol Anyway I just wanted to share with ya’ll my happy little place. My Bed! This is where all the magic happens, where I get inspired, were some sleeping happens and most importantly where I plan out all my evil schemes. I Plan to take over the world soon. Lol I like to lie down here and listen to music and think about shit.I know I’ve been down lately but don’t get it twisted I get it in. I turn on the radio and get low with Flo Rida, emotional with Marc Anthony, thuged out with Lil Wayne and become Invincible with Michael Jackson. I get sexy with Aventura, nostalgic with Juan Luis Guerra. Diva-ish with Beyonce empowered by La India. Music can always make your day great cuz you can always relate to one or two songs out there. Music is just such a great escape from reality, I just break it down like no one is watching. Whether i'm home or on my way somewhere I always have music on, Till next time bust a move and I‘ll keep singing at the top of my lungs:

"Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time...."

Over and out. Till Next Time, Hugs and Lots of kisses.
Weezy


Bonus Round: Women what can I say we are weak and pathetic. We are so god damn emotional and we get attached to people way too quickly. I'm very guilty of this. I've been feeling like shit, like someone ripped apart my heart( More like they put my heart in a blender) and for what??? And for whom??? Nigga Please! How can we love someone who doesnt give a fuck about you(who never did). Who takes advantage of your love, who takes for granted that you will always be there for them. Who disrespects you all the time and doesnt see what we do for them.Yes some women are down right dirty, Selfish and back stabbing bitches who deserve to be hit (sorry Rihanna, but you probably deserved that shit, and you went straight back to him) Yes after all the abuse we bitches run right back for more. Please stop the madness ladies and have some respect for yourselves. We will survive.

"quién, quién eres tú?para hacerme sufrir, para hacerme llorar si hoy tu eres feliz porqué tengo yo que sufrir por ti dime quién eres tú?........"